I remember it was the year 2009 and I was in my 9th standard. Just like every other Indian family, indian serials were also our mere source of entertainment at night. Because of my tight schedule of studies and coaching I barely had time for a break. I hardly had any friend also. For me it was all studies, family and my dogs.
The year 2009 was the time when TV screen casted a serial called ‘Pavitra Rishta’ on Zee TV. My family and I used to watch this serial on dinning table every night. One of the reasons why I found myself intrigued to it was its theme song, one soothing music which still plays in my head while jotting this down. But it wasn’t just the theme song but the lead actor of the serial, named Manav (Sushant Singh rajput) , who completely caught my attention. He had this most generous smile I had ever seen. Apart from his brilliant acting, there was this new feeling in me which was generating with time. I had realised that I have started liking this guy, not just as an actor but a human being too.
And now today, after 10 years, I heard the news of his death. He committed suicide. Reason being depression. My mind is not willing to accept the fact that someone who was not just completely drawn into the stardom, but was also living his life on his terms. His passion towards life, his thoughts, poems, his yearly dreams which he used to pen down in his diary and share on social media, everything seemed so personal to me. Can’t believe Someone who looked so motivated in life could take such a huge step. It’s very clear to comprehend that it’s not what you see which is real, you can’t just make assumptions out of someone’s life by just seeing their actions. You have no idea what battle they may be fighting everyday. His death has hit me harder.
This loss seems too personal. Feels like I have lost a part of my childhood
Sometimes, I too find myself completely alone and I know alot of people would feel the same way. There are people who find it extremely difficult from asking help to just starting a normal conversation with someone. In this tough time of pandemic crisis everyone is tensed with their own problems and this makes it even more difficult for people who are already self conscious in approaching others for an extended help.
I wish, I really wish, people take mental health as a serious issue and don’t make fun of such people.
I’m disheartened today.
Kaurageous.
Kaurageous 